Just one of those nights(:

USS!(:

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Productive week!((:

Shall start off with what I did today first:
I did baking!! And gym!
Proud of myself though. Exercise 3 times a week this time round.. Hopefully I can loose off some weight and not gain any muscles!!! They are uglyyy!!! I'm having some of it now and I really don't like it at all!!!)): hahahah!

Something else I want to mention about: and that is I really miss talking to sze!! I really have no idea why sometimes I feel rather awkward and after the 'fight' we had the other time it felt even worse. I really mean it when you are being bastard nice just like how yida was!! But I just hope that you realize it you know!! Sighhh I don't know what exactly am I feeling right now but it's totally confusing me! I just want to talk to you again! I just have no idea how!!
Sometimes I wonder why do I always have this type of problems?!! Why am I always the one feeling awkward, which is making myself looking really stupid and nonsense!!
Maybe I am just thinking too much!! And maybe you are right! I am thinking too muc right now!! At night always make me feel so edgy and emotional😖😖😖😖

Thinking too much? You are the one not thinking hard enough.

I think too much..?
Sometimes it just hurts somehow that you are the one that this is coming from..
In the first place, why be so nice? So bastard nice? there are just boundaries that cant be crossed. Dont you just understand that. There is a difference between just being concern and overly concern.
Alright, maybe I think too much. But who started that first?
You're just the last person I want to talk to right now.

Does it mean anything when I just want someone beside me and just listen to me whenever I need to? You don't have to tell me whether I'm right or wrong. I DONT WANT THAT! Don't you understand me? It just pissed me off so bad. I have lost so many things. SO MUCH. Things that matters to me the most. Why can't you understand? All I need is company? I just feel so alone at times like this.

When was the last time that I feel truth warmth? When was the last time that I dont have to pretend who I am not?

Sometimes I just wish someone could replace the one that I truly love. But she's just not coming back. I haven't grown have I? Still holding back on the past. Whatever I have now I won't cherish them right iinfront of me.


Can someone just teach me how to let go? I really need it.

I screwed guitar exam. fking hate myself for that. Why am I just so bad at very thing. So fking annoyed. Headache like shit now. No idea... What the fk should I do with my life. Not even good at what I like to do!! What am I even!!!
Just like screwed up for life. Maybe I will be a road sweeper. A fat one!! I am sooo ANNOYED!! Can anyone just feel me?!!! Im not just all fun you know. I laugh my problems away. what a escaper I am.
Self declared coward... Such loser of my own life...

On my way to USS. Hope that I can get a really good time.

I feel like I can go crazy.
I need a break from all expectations to meet. From all the certs. From all the eyes.

Dont feel good.

thinking of low self esteem just makes me want to puke!! thinking how I am not good in this. in that isjust making me so mad so frustrated about myself. where have my confidence gone to. TO THE DRAIN??? this is really frustrating. I recieve no words of encouragement. Feelong overshadowed.
i have no idea what i have becone. i really need some confidence tmr. Inferiority please go to hell. I dont ever want to see your ugly face again!!! Now I see myself as FAT and I just cant seem to slim down fml. I just want to throw up after eating finish a meal. this is bad isnt it. so please. that feeling can you just depart from my soul?

I really feel so blessed.
Listening to others talk about how stressful JC will be with all competitive people around and not being able to make nice friends just turned out to be all lies!
Thanks god for 2012. and being in SR.Even the school just sucks. The people in here are really nice.

Talking to you just really makes me blush sometimes.((: