Listening to music while typing this is so much better.
How come the right one just doesnt come.
How come everytime i see your picture we took my heart still beats as fast and memories just flash pass so quickly...
Why cant you just be the one.
Damn it I am just a fool. Holding on to what I cant have...
It hurts to just think that you are with someone else right now.

I just wish that I could move on. 2012 is going to be over soon. Its time to start a new. I can right? I have to start it right. Time to let go. I just feel like drinking and drowning everything away...

Thinking right.

I just dont have that feeling for him. He's nice. He's a good friend but... He just doesnt make my heart skip a bit. But he's just nice to hang out with like good friends. Even though i like you (kind of), but just not in a relationship way. I just feel that typing it out will make me think through things clearer.

I think I still love her afterall. She's the one that sends vibes all over me with every touch and hugging you just takes my breath away.

Had a really Merry Christmas

There's more to the food actually hahha!

HAVE A MERRY CHRISTMAS!!((:

First Christmas celebration with MY MUGS(:

Gifts I recieved this year((:

 

Another Must Listen

Inspiring creativity

Being Thankful

This year's Christmas feel rather empty. Don't really feel like I'm having everyone I want near me.
Somehow I am always saying that I am so messed up, so screwed up. But, it has been a really long time since I sincerely appreciate what is around me all this while.

During this Christmas,
If I am given 3 things to thank for it will be:
1) The love, the encouragement, the kindness, the forgiveness that everyone gave me.
2) For being where I am right now, in a JC having the opportunity to move closer towards my dream.
3) Having such wonderful group of friends, that are always there whenever I needed the support, whenever I need someone to agree with me. Really love them for being there always.

Even though, sometimes i think too much, or distant myself away too much, I still appreciate everything. During this Christmas, I hope to share my love I feel for everyone this year round. Can never express how thankful I am.




There's so much things I am feeling that I can never express myself properly. I have no idea if its loneliness or inferior or self-consious or frustration. I hope there is someone who understand me better than myself. My darkside. Who knows what I do. What I have done. What bad things have I done that can never be recovered.All these are like my burden. I'm sounding like a depressed freak that needs therapy session.

During this holiday, I really have thought through alot. Get alot of time alone to think of what I have done.I should start the new year right. I just got to be who I really am. No social pressures.No pressure from everyone. Following my thoughts following my instinct and no one else. And I dont need any spouse or whatever that will share my feelings. Because I have friends that are way too much better. 2013. Its time for some serious work to be done. Lots of focus needed.

Listen to the sound of music

Having some passion in your life makes you feel so much alive.
Music. For one. Is there whenever I need it whenever I feel that there was a need for some emotional distress. I want succeed in this area so badly.
Because I feel that music is something that I can hold so close to me that I wont loose it. It wont leave me or understand me. Its just there. No one will take it away from me.

Distant

After this trip, I really feel that I am pushing everyone away from me when I got too close to them..
It's not that I want to... But rather when we start to get too close.. I start to feel really uncomfortable.. And I don't like it. And start to feel really irritated.. Picking out their flaws and getting really annoyed by them..
Why am I like this!! Do I have trust issues. I love everyone that are around me right now.. But I always think that when you get too close to someone you tend to just have conflict with them soon not later.. About everything!!! Feel like this is just not right at all!! And feel damn annoyed with each other.. Then comes the heart breaking part.. There's no way for me to get close to someone like that!! Maybe that is why I always like to hang out in groups..
Much more comfortable that wayy!! I have no idea what is wrong with me!!! Maybe I need to go for some sort of consult to find out what the hell am I exactly thinking about or scared about!

GUANG ZHOU PART 1

The shop that I bought Kang Ngee's wallet!((:

Best Dim Sum EVERR

OMG ARE WE EATING SHIT???

Tired after bargaining and shopping~~

Look at those SATAY STICKS!! YUMMY!

HEHEH

Look at the FOOOD!

MY FAVOURITE SQUID!

YUCCKK~

Sleepy and ANNOYED

SAY CHEESE~

GAYS nvr fails to brighten up my day

Darren Criss

AHHHHH~~

Thoughts

ALWAYS LIKE THIS

DOES"NT MEAN THAT I AM THINKING TOO MUCH

Just one of those nights(: